For those of you that know #Anxiety you will know the feeling when you have to do something but your brain and body is telling you otherwise.
For me today, it's as simple as phoning my insurance company to discuss the renewal price. A simple task that can possibly save me money, but when anxiety kicks in, it's anything but simple. There is no rational explanation behind the feeling of dread associated with doing this task, it should be easy, after all, they want me to stay with them.
So how do I deal with this? For me, and it won't be the same for everyone, the letter of renewal is placed somewhere I can find it, but so that its not on show, or in a to-do pile. I don't need the pressure of reminders that I need to do this. I need to take my time and pick the right moment when my anxiety is not a feeling of dread, but more of a nagging thought.
It's also a task that I must undertake. I don't live close to amenities so I need to have transport to get to the post office and the supermarket. Yes, I can get post collected these days, and I can get groceries delivered, but I have to push myself to leave the house to do these tasks or my brain will make things worse for me. I do manage to get these tasks done eventually, but it can take me a few days or weeks to feel OK enough to do these little tasks.
Now, some people won't know what I'm on about, or at least they don't think they know, and everyone who has anxieties feels them in a different way. My anxiety manifests itself as a feeling of dread, like the world is about to end. It's a physical feeling too, like a pressure in my head and chest. You may have felt something similar. Think back to when you have left something behind or you have forgotten to do something really important. That's the feeling I get for almost every task I have to do. Even if it's as simple as making a phone call.
There are so many people out there who live with anxiety, and there are so many different forms of anxiety too. Some are mild anxieties, some are life changing and mentally crippling, but one thing they all have in common, and most importantly, they are invisible. You can not tell by looking at someone that they suffer from this. Keeping this in mind, always remember to be kind, as you just never know what someone else is living with. And never forget, always ask someone how they are.
Thanks for reading this, I hope you have a good day.